happy

weird things are happening...

I call his number, it gives a quite normal ring... it rings about 5 times and he answers the phone!

we talk like we always were able to talk: making each other laugh with little stories, I'm mocking life in general and he's laughing about all of my jokes, and he's getting them, too! and I can hear his smile in his voice and it makes me so happy! and I can feel myself blushing and feel elated about it all.
we talk about the months ahead and seeing one another again and talk about things he wants to do with us in the future, taking me out to do what's become really important in his life, he wants me to participate in that...

I'm grinning, I'm laughing, this is awesome
I don't want this to stop, I don't want to give this up, I want this to be part of my life again.

on the other hand, I'm smoking the first cig in over a week, it's like the post coital cigarette heh heh

I can't believe that half an hour on the phone with him, having such a sweet little conversation can make me so damn happy. don't stop, don't go away again.

*grins*

please. please.