yesterday, I had a little e-mail conversation with E, a good mate of mine. she works across town and her boss doesn't like employees using the office phone lines for their private communication. oh well.

anyways, the essence of the convo was how to stop our constant thinking-too-much, which, as we all know, doesn't solve shite. so we should give it up. she suggested I go read

Guilio Cesare Giacobbe's "come smettere di farsi le seghe mentali e godersi la vita"

in english, that title amounts to something like "how to stop your brainwanking and enjoy your life instead"

at this point, I'm halfway through it and I'm entertained. to the point where I sat at the station this morning, waiting for the train and laughing aloud about every other sentence. the lad who wrote it is a philosopher and psychiologist and teaches at universitá di genoa.

brainwanking, as he explains it is the constant thinking about stuff that is not real. real is your body and your immediate surroundings. anything only happening in your brain which harms you is brainwanking. thoughts were meant to give you a way to let off some steam, to be able to cope with situations, which is okay. thinking is okay. but if you reach the point where the "what if, I should, why...blahblahblah" goes overboard, you're hurting yourself. and only a masochist would find pleasure in that.

I have been waiting for something like this. I think too much and it hurts me more than it does any good. I'm glad I bought the book.

the only bad part about buying it is... I already stood in that bookstore, right.. and I couldn't just buy this one book I had planned to buy, noooo I had to go buy two others as well. another 30 €. damnit.