no ranting or raving... life can be so uncomplicated :o)

so why not ranting and raving?

because I'm starting to see some good sides about being me. remember about my former mates and how annoyed I was at them? well.. the story continued on saturday late afternoon, when I talked to G and he said they couldn't get C's mother to babysit their kids as she found 1001 lame excuses and apologies why she couldn't/wouldn't have the time... so in other words: they couldn't go out and party with me. or at all.

I then looked around the "racing pages" about what's going on on saturday night in my good old city downtown.there was a DJ from connecticut DJing at the P.L. club... a club just up the road, across the bridge and through the park... around 300 metres from my house.

so at around quarter to 1 am I went there... for about 2 hours, dancing around, having a long drink (I figured out, when I go out all by myself, I drink much less... heck - nothing wrong with 8 euros worth of a club night, eh) and today I still have a bit of sore muscles across my legs but I enjoyed it nonetheless.

there was a young couple on the dance floor, and he was pretty much pissed... as in drunk off his arse and behaving like a total twat.. which was kinda awkward for the gf... and people in the crowd shook their heads at him.my conclusions: it really isn't all that bad being single and having no kids now.

a) I don't have to see to find a babysitter.

b) I don't have to be annoyed at a partner for behaving like a total cunt in public.

c) I can go home, nice and buzzed, and hang around my place, jump around to music at 4 am without feeling embarrassed... can play pc untill 4:30 am on a sunday morning and then stagger to bed after having taken the piss at everyone still online ehehehe

d) I can hang around the house on a sunday in my dirty sweaty bliss, cooking weird stuff and generally just trashing the place to my liking, thinking fuck-all about everything and spending my time with stuff I like doing without feeling sorry for someone else when I wanna read a book and not actually DO anything.

g'damn, life can be so good when I can see things clearly as this!

g'damn, life can be so uncomplicated, when the only person I have to think about is me and me alone :))))
I really dig when I can do what I want whenever I want it. no questions asked. just doing my own thang.

I suppose it's all about perspective. I suppose I can work on finding my life better, at least every once in a while. it isn't much, I know.. but hey, it's mine!